338 - July 12th - Pt 3
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I don't know how many minutes or hours has passed. I had a lucid moment of me sitting on the floor and accepting the rope and pain as part of me. He came and tied up my feet again,flip me over and adding more rope XXXX me into a hogtie. I could see His feet until the last of my senses was depraved when He added more rope on my eyes.
I could hear the winch up and down, making me to expect any moment to be lifted up in the air, I could hear His voice like the only connection left between me and this world.
As I was falling into my own torment all I could remember is me sitting on the floor and the hard concrete.
Pain had disappeared and a warm peaceful feeling start to spread inside my body.I cold hear myself squirming,trapped into a immobilized body, but even my squirming started to fad away like an ecco taking away any last trace of resistence .I was floating into my own inner world,free, stripped down of all my rights and will into this perfect silence.